I am that mom that is riddled with anxiety. Every move I make is stratigically planned out in my head before it happens. When I take a shower, I thimk about what I will do first; towels out then get undressed? Or should I get undressed first and bring the towels with me? I like things to go smoothly and calling me a control freak might be an understatement.
These character "flaws" have their advantage as well. I am typically well prepared and I hardly ever lose my cool; even when things dont go to plan. I believe I will always be this way and I also believe I will become better at it through out time. However, I vowe to still have spontaneoity in my sons life and fortunately, his father compliments my planning vigour with his fun loving "spur of the moment" life mantra. I am glad my son will get to experience both sides.
I may seem to spew naivety with my projections for the future, but isn't that what I am supposed to be doing as a new mom? I'm working toward positive thinking and letting my overzealous planning work for me and not against me.
I am aware that my plans will come crashing down on me many many times, but I have my partner, my best friend, my sons father (all wrapped into one) to help me through those times. Thats what family is for right?
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